I felt useless today.
It happens with me atleast once in a month when everything seems so trivial and temporary.And today was one such day.
I blessed trees, birds, tiny insects, pebbles and people because one day we won’t witness each other.
I looked deeply at the bright full moon, remembering all the souls (with whom I was associated) who left the planet; collecting their valuable contribution in shaping my life.
I thought about the most opted circle of life – Getting into studies, then marriage, having kids and then devoting all the time for children, their needs and desires.
I felt so useless about doing things that I could not even finish editing of one of my research paper.
I felt scared about death. I felt terrible on the thought of losing people and life one day. I felt like a garbage bin when thinking about my research activities.
I just wanted to lie down for hours doing nothing, emptying my inner self.