From falsely fresh to freshly awake

There are moments when we are in an incredibly miserable state from within and then we still do ‘eeeee’  (fake eshmile) before the world.

There are moments when we are boiling with anger and then we still do ‘oley..ley’  (fake softness) in front of people.

There are moments when we just want to sit in the room doing nothing and then we still dress up to get crowded

There are moments when we are deeply hurt and then we still put on joy (fake saint) before people.

There are many more such moments when we act opposite to what we feel from inside. And this habit gets deeply embedded with in us which in a way gives birth to regret, guilt and anxiety.

When I look back, I find my previous-self full of such ‘masks’, however, from the last one and a half year, I’ve improved upon being original with the inner. And this has come as an automatic by product of taking out little time for – daily silence, sitting close to nature [sun gazing, listening to the chirping of birds etc], chanting Mantras [Japa] and off-course writing. These habits [developed one by one, slowly, and now they are all part of routine] help me to get closer to myself everyday and gives me strength to never leave myself no matter what!

Now, when I’m upset, I tell people around me to give me a break.

When I’m joyous, I go out to share the flowing joy. I hug trees , hug people (don’t care who’s is seeing and who’s not) and laugh out loud.

When I’m busy in certain task, I tell people that ‘how much they matter to me’ and I can’t give them less than 100% attention!

I’ve realized that the best gift we can offer to ourselves is being original to ourselves. And this is the only promise I’ve made to myself – that I won’t cheat the inner me for the sake of society. Because the biggest damage society does is – it kills the individual in us!

Protect, be a mother of your inner self. Express, tell people what you think, what’s going on inside of you. And never let mind ever think that life would come without challenges.


8 thoughts on “From falsely fresh to freshly awake

  1. Kind of a Janus philosophy – being two faced? In this case, the social necessity of hiding our truth from the world so we don’t disappoint, or the world doesn’t take advantage of our weakness and hurt us even more?


    1. The post is about following our inner tutor. Being in resonance with the inner. Fake less, walk more original and authentic! Being Protective, meaning listening, caring and taking responsibility of your life.


      1. I guess I missed it by a mile, though I still don’t quite get it. Which is the “real”? The inner discomfort, or the fake face to the world? Where does the inner tutor fit in this? Is it the one pushing the fake outwardly so we don’t upset others? Or is it the one reminding us of the way we feel and saying, to hell with it, let them all know how I feel? Where’s the empowered “outcome” here? Do we flaunt our real inner feelings to the world, thereby making it uncomfortable so we can be vindicated? Or do we present the world with what it expects of us, while hiding our own feelings? These are just questions. Answer if you feel like it, or not. Maybe I’m just tired and a bit dense right now – it’s almost midnight here after all and I should be in bed 🙂


  2. is the one reminding us of the way we feel and letting it flow out in the form of words and actions. And for this to happen we need to learn to be calm and harmonious in the mind. That’s why I’ve mentioned how daily silence, writing and connection with nature has helped me/helps getting close to myself. In the chaos, it becomes difficult to listen to the voice which whispers into our ears.


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