Immediate action to break the loop

Jo bhi karna hai abhi karo, Abhi nahi to kabhi nahi  || ~Osho

Doing things which our mind tells us :
*to put-off
*they are difficult

brings satisfaction and builds self- confidence. 

The only way we can break the procrastination chain or the habit of postponing things is by taking immediate action . Act in the present. Move an inch but move, it will acts as a Glucon-D or Sona Chaandi Chyavan Praash for the mind-body-heart. 

‘Kyuki VartMaan hee sabse bada ShaktiMaan Hai ‘

From falsely fresh to freshly awake

There are moments when we are in an incredibly miserable state from within and then we still do ‘eeeee’  (fake eshmile) before the world.

There are moments when we are boiling with anger and then we still do ‘oley..ley’  (fake softness) in front of people.

There are moments when we just want to sit in the room doing nothing and then we still dress up to get crowded

There are moments when we are deeply hurt and then we still put on joy (fake saint) before people.

There are many more such moments when we act opposite to what we feel from inside. And this habit gets deeply embedded with in us which in a way gives birth to regret, guilt and anxiety.

When I look back, I find my previous-self full of such ‘masks’, however, from the last one and a half year, I’ve improved upon being original with the inner. And this has come as an automatic by product of taking out little time for – daily silence, sitting close to nature [sun gazing, listening to the chirping of birds etc], chanting Mantras [Japa] and off-course writing. These habits [developed one by one, slowly, and now they are all part of routine] help me to get closer to myself everyday and gives me strength to never leave myself no matter what!

Now, when I’m upset, I tell people around me to give me a break.

When I’m joyous, I go out to share the flowing joy. I hug trees , hug people (don’t care who’s is seeing and who’s not) and laugh out loud.

When I’m busy in certain task, I tell people that ‘how much they matter to me’ and I can’t give them less than 100% attention!

I’ve realized that the best gift we can offer to ourselves is being original to ourselves. And this is the only promise I’ve made to myself – that I won’t cheat the inner me for the sake of society. Because the biggest damage society does is – it kills the individual in us!

Protect, be a mother of your inner self. Express, tell people what you think, what’s going on inside of you. And never let mind ever think that life would come without challenges.

Being festive in the ordinary

Tonight, on the dining table, my eyes stopped on Prabhash : A proud I.I.Tian, cricket lover and a fighter.

He can’t lift his hands and has difficulty in walking straight. He has to bend forward to push his legs move. Amidst such challenges, he faces each day like a warrior and comes out as a  champion.

While eating, my eyes stopped at him. His friend and care taker was feeding him rice with his own hands and Prabhash was eating joyously. There was peace on his face.

At that very moment, I felt deeply grateful for everything. I looked at my hands affectionately. I even whispered ‘thank you’ to my legs.
I realised that being festive in the ordinary is L.I.F.E.

Being thankful for the little things magnifies our perception and enhances our attitude/ ability in handling failures.

Death and life

My whole being shivered internally as the thought of ‘death’ progressed through nervous system.

I remembered my grand mother (we call her baby aaji)  who is the only eldest member left in our family from my father’s side. And by God’s grace she is healthy and happy being.  I felt fortunate to recieve all her love and care.

I remembered all the old souls from our family who left the planet. The memory of the beautiful time I spent with them ran through my mental screen.

We think, do and accumulate so many things/issues and then one day we just vanish! I felt hollow from inside. Suddenly, all the obstacles associated with the things I’m currently working on turned insignificant.

The more we remember death, the deeper we live every moment.

As I sleep, I bow down in deep gratitude for this moment..for this life..for this breath.

Ventilation in the room of relationships

How well we get coloured by the flaws of other being without uttering ouchh – decides the quality of our bonding and relationship with the other.

Flaws come along with awesomeness. And what we acknowledge more shapes our connection.

If something hurts/ disappoints us about the other, let’s not make it a mental screen saver and keep it playing  for months and years ; instead, take a pause to reflect onto series of good things & enormous care s/he has done for you.

I’ve learned that difficult conversation simplifies relationships [any relations, not.just romantic ones]. Creating a space and environment to set up discussion on things which sounds uncomfortable builds pathway for heart-centric approach towards life. [Being true to inner self].

I’ve also learned that communication is like a proper ventilation in the room of relations.

Communicate from the core of the heart, never ever presume that ‘they’ will understand. Never ever hesitate to share how you feel. If you feel shy to say, write it down and post it or drop a mail.

Express yourself. Practice, rehearse and speak up creatively as if you are kissing a dew drop meditating on a rose petal.

How I want to get married

Marriage to me has never been about inviting thousands of people in a hall and make their stomachs over filled with hundreds of different dishes!

The concept of royal weddings has never been part of my bucket list.Instead, I’ve a very frugal and minimalist picture of getting married.

I dream of getting married in a natural atmosphere; on a bank of river, under the blue sky – feeling the vibrations of Mantras and the blessings of people [very few] who matter most.

I dream of a marriage which begins with the sun rise and gets completed in an hour or two so that we all can enjoy breakfast and lunch together at a proper time. [No compromise when it comes to khaana 😛.]

I dream of a collective meditation [silence] and Satsang [communicating with each other, taking suggestions from elders, listening to young ones, sharing stories and laughters together] at the end of the marriage in the laps of mother nature.

I dream of sitting on a carpet of grass [even chataayi will also do] and eating healthy bhojan jise kele ke patto par parosaa ho with the closed ones together.

I dream of a marriage which rejuvenates, refreshens and energizes every individual instead of making it a hectic, tiring and energy draining experience.

Love anyway

Love is my only capacity and I’m very creatively upfront in expressing love towards people.

Though there have been moments when, inspite of sending continuous waves of love and care the person on the receiving end didn’t reciprocated with the same warmth and affection.

Earlier, it used to disturb me internally and it still does, however, now the intensity of inner turbulence has reduced. May be because my understanding about love has grown.

I’ve learned that love doesn’t have to be both ways always. And if it’s one way it doesn’t mean that we keep the shutter down of our heart. We can still choose to send love (it takes courage) invisibly in the form of prayers.

I’ve learned to step back silently not just because the other person didn’t loved back but because my love is precious and I can’t afford to share it publicly with those who don’t value.

I’ve learned to protect and value my love and care and transmit it in meditation and prayer to those who never had time to relish the warmth of it.

I’ve learned to be invisible so as to create least disturbance in the lives of people who didn’t have time for us..always in rush.

I’m deeply grateful to people who didn’t loved me, because they’ve actually helped me to grow in love.